Hi Mum I can't believe its almost 4 months since I lost you, not a day goes by that I don't think about you. But I have to pretend that you have not died as it hurts too much. I just pretend that I don't see you so that I can cope. I know it sounds awful but it still cuts so deep when I think of your awful death and I still have to believe that you were happy and in no pain. I miss you so much god bless you mum xxxxx