I can't believe its 3 weeks since I lost you mum, somedays it just feels like yesterday and other days it seems like a lifetime. I miss you so much but I feel so numb I think I am pretending in my head that you are still alive and I have just not been down to visit you. But in my heart I know thats not true. I just wish we had heard your voice one last time before you died it still frustrates me knowing that you wanted to say something to us but couldnt. I suppose I will never know for sure but I do know that you loved us and mum we love you forever. xxxxx